strawberrysoda

So I woke up at like three or three thirty today, pathetic, huh? I was planning on going to bed early last night too, haha so much for that idea.

I went to bed at like 7:30 this morning, this needs to be put to a stop!  By the time I finally got out of the house it was dark, and the first thing I noticed was that the stars were out!  The moon was a perfect crescent in the sky and I can't remember the last time I've seen the moon or the stars.  It made me very happy!  That's one great thing about living in the middle of no where, you see stars better than anyone else in the world.  Summer nights out here are absolutely amazing, lying on the trampoline with friends and just talking staring up at the stars.  I can't wait for summer!!!

Today I was helping my friend Tessa and her family move out of their house, they are not done yet, but they are going to be out of their old house by 2:30 tomorrow afternoon.  It's so weird that they are moving, we've had so many memories in that house!  From 6th grade up to this year they've lived there, and I can't believe that house is going to be empty!  We've had many good times in that house!  So tomorrow morning I'm going to be getting up to help them move into their apartment.  They are living in an apartment for a week to get their new house into the shape that they want it, so Tessa will be moving in with me for the week.  If I broadcast less this week, that's why.  It's more convenient for her because she's going to be living 20 minutes from her high school so her staying here in my town is easier for her since the school is within walking distance. 

I work tomorrow, and I haven't gotten any school work done whatsoever these past 3 days.  It's depressing, I'm going to be a senior in highschool for the rest of my life! AHH!  I'm planning on going to bed extra early tonight, so that I can wake up at a decent time tomorrow to help them move, since I work at 2:30 PM.  I am so pumped for tomorrow night though, my friend is having a party at his place.  It's been so long since I've hung out with all my friends in one place, so I'm extra pumped!!!! 

<3

Jeni

So I know it's been a rediculous amount of time since I've blogged, so I decided to finally pick up and start again! [we'll see how long this time lasts lol]

I've been broadcasting a lot more on Justin.TV lately, thanks to the encouragement of all my viewers and friends!  I've been having a lot of fun with it and meeting more and more people!  So thank you to those of you who have been supporting and encouraging me!

My life has been quite calm lately.  I have a new schedule of sleeping hours that isn't quite working from me.  I wake up between 1-3 PM every day and don't sleep til about 5-6 AM.  That needs to change!  But I know if it does that means less time to broadcast, so I don't see that happening any time soon, lol.

I also need to start working on my school work more, so if any of you feel like getting on my ass about that through a message or even on JTV, that would be great!  I need to be kept in check once in a while, haha.

Today was a pretty fun day, I spent a majority of it with my good friend Mike, someone I haven't spent much time with in quite while now!  We went shopping to buy things to fix his bedroom door in his apartment, and then we went back there to do some MAJOR cleaning so that his girlfriend would be surprised when she got home from work.  It all was successful, I scrubbed the bathroom, and let me tell you, men do NOT clean like women.  I wiped up more gunk and man-hair from this bathroom than I've ever seen in any horror movie or dream.  So guys, a heads up, if you leave excess hair lying around, or don't scrub your toilet every once in a while, do your girls a favor and START so it doesn't build up and get gunky for the women to clean up, haha.  Well it worked, and his girlfriend was very surprised and pleased!

We ate taco bell and hung out for a little bit, and then I decided it was time to go home.  So now here I sit, in my rediculously dirty/messy room after completely scrubbing out the bathroom belonging to three men.  Now I am thinking to myself, "If I can handle that, I can definitely handle this bedroom."  But the fact that it's mine makes it less desireable to take care of, haha.  It's got to get done tonight, so I"m thinking I'll be doing cleaning most of the time during my broadcast, hopefully to have a little sit-down time with you guys and socialize! 

Thanks for checking out my latest post, I'm going to try to keep at it!  Thanks again to everyone!

<3Jeni [strawberrysoda]

www.justin.tv/strawberrysoda

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So I just woke up, and for anyone who remembers me talking about being sick on the broadcast, well, I think it's gotten worse.  =  For those who weren't there, I started sounding like a "13-year old male starting peuberty" as I described it.  Now my throat feels kind of swollen and I am coughing a lot. =[  Also my nose is all stuffy.  Oh well, it's not a big deal, just kind of feel gross. 

There's a song that I can't stop listening to, no matter how many times I play it I can't get sick of it.  I suggest you download it, it's called "Hear You Me" by Jimmy Eat World.  It's a real good'n.  So also, for those who don't know, I broke my cell phone yesterday.  Well, Idk if "broke" is the righ word.  I just dropped it in a puddle and now it refuses to work =[  My awesome green phone, and it's dead.  So now I'm probably going to use my dad's old one, it's black.

I've def been slacking on reading my book!  It's the last twilight series book and for some reason, every time I read a series I take really long to read the last one. The others took me 3 days at the most and I'm pretty sure I've been working on this one for about a week now.  It's rather pathetic.  Anyone who hasn't read these books yet, DO IT! It's not just a girl's book, I know guys that are reading them too that really like them.  So get your bootay to Barne's and Noble's or Borders and purchase these and read them in this order:  1 Twilight  2. New Moon  3. Eclipse  4. Breaking Dawn.  DO IT!  They are so amazing.  They make you sort of feel lonely, though.  Not really so much lonely, just anxious for what they have.  I'm completely obsessed with Edward and Bella's love, it's beautiful!  Korny I know, shut it! =]  Btw, I'm really pissed that they cancelled the fifth book. 

I work again today from 4 to 8, and then I'm probably just coming straight home unless Tessa and I are hungry and feel like going out.  I'm trying to save my money right now though.  I hate being sick!

My left eye is killing me now.

Have a great day everyone!!!

Keep watching out for my broadcast, I'll probably be on around 11 PM my time.

http://www.justin.tv/strawberrysoda.  <--click hereee!

=] <3 Jeni

Today I am going to use ugly colors, because that is what sort of a mood I'm in. 

Ugly meaning unhappy?  No. 

Ugly meaning, makeupless? Yes, but not relevant.

Ugly as in...

Confused.  About life.  The meanings of things.  Wishing I knew it all and thinking back on how maybe at one point, I really thought I knew it all.  I don't remember what book I got this quote from, but it always comes back to me, "If I've learned anything in all of my years, it's that I know absolutely nothing."  It's such a true and pure statement.  I love it.  It's just weird to think how there really is no 100% accuracy on everything in the world until after the fact.  No one person is the same, and their situations, their bodies, their thoughts, EVERYTHING is different in some way, shape, or form. 

And I'm not depressed about it. 

I'm not torturing myself as if somehow my subconscious is holding out on me with the truth.  I know that no one really knows except God. 

Nothing in life that happens is really a "bad" thing.  People move on, situations improve, if the person is willing and wanting it badly enough.

Not all things come at the best timing, but then again, time never stands still.

So I've got lots and lots of new things that I want to talk to you about!

For starters, the whole "blogging daily" thing didn't work out, I'm such a slacker!  I've been thinking about my camera a lot lately, and how I'm sad I don't take very many pictures =

Today my goal is to take as many picture as I can and put them up here for ya so you can see what I do during the day.

I actually just woke up.  I didn't get hom until 5:30 this morning.  You see, my friend Steven and I felt bad for Brandon because he missed his train twice yesterday to come home, so at 9 o'clock last night we decided to go and surprise him.  It was a lot of fun.  We actually didn't need to turn on the radio once, we talked the entire way.  It was three hours there and about 4.5 hours back, lol.  We stopped a few places on the way home.  We almost blew my engine because we started running low on oil so had to look around in desperation for a gas station that was actually open.  Everything worked out, and it was a lot of fun!  I am so thankful I had Steven with me, I never would have been able to do it without him!  I wish I would have taken pictures last night of our road trip, but I didn't think about it.

So today I am dying my hair.  Let me know if you have any objections, I'd like to hear your opinion.  It's going to be more red, I thought it would be nice for the fall =]

I have a cook out to go to today, so I'm excited about that.  I love food and nice weather at the same time.

I know I haven't broadcasted much, but it's been mostly because of my internet.  But regardless I will try to keep all things active [twitter, buzznet etc..] and that's a definite promise!  Plus I will be posting pictures.

A little shoutout for anyone that likes to read, pick up the Twilight series!  It has four books in it, 1. Twilight, 2. New Moon 3. Eclipse 4. Breaking Dawn.  I guarantee you will love these books [especially if you're a girl that likes a strange romance] and you will have the hardest time sleeping at night when you have the option to read!  Do me a favor if you haven't read these yet, and READ THEM!!!  Well I'm gonna go get ready for the day, I feel lazy for lying in bed.  Have a great day everyone!

Have you ever been on a road trip? Where did you go? If not, where would you go? What would you bring with you and who would you bring with you?

Last night was one of the most bizaarre nights ever.  My friend Tessa and I were throwing this party for our friend  Adrienne's 18th birthday.  We had been planning it for over 2  weeks and Tessa went all out.  She bought so much stuff for this party she spent over a hundred dollars.  That's a lot to us.  Anyway, people started coming and our old friend that moved away came and brought 3 people he went to school with.  The two kids were quiet but this one kid, we'll just call him "Shawty Joe" since he seems to like calling other people that, anyway, this kid was smoking weed in my friend's kitchen and her mom would not like that.  She was cool with people drinking and stuff but that was risky as it was.  So Tessa was like "Um do you think you could possibly not do that in here?  Go outside or go home if you're going to smoke that."  And Shawty Joe says, "Aw hell nah I thought this was a party." and he left to go outside.  All of a sudden we hear someone's car speaker system booming loudly.  So we go out side and Shawty Joe says "Turn that shit up man."  Tessa says "No turn it down please."  Shawty Joe started freaking out saying we were "disrespectin" him and that we were bitch ass smart hoes.  We were merely trying to explain to him that Tessa's mom was letting us have a get-together but there are people sleeping in the house so we needed to keep it down.  For some reason anything we said was disrespectin' him and that we needed to shut the fuck up.

So Tessa and I jump in and say "Um actually this is my house so yes you do need to be respectful and we can talk however we want here."  Shawty Joe wasn't for that so he says "Ain't no female be disrepectin' me.  Fuck that no females talk down to me."  We eventually told him to leave with his other friends.  He started yelling at me to get out of his face and I said I'm not getting in your face buddy I'm just trying to explain to you why we are asking what we are asking of you.  Shawty Joe strarts saying he's going to bust my teeth in and bitch slap me and shit and that's when our friend Tim jumped in[the only guy that defended us btw] and said, "Dude that's fucked up you can't hit girls and you shouldn't talk about hitting girls either.  You just need to leave."  Shawty gave a bunch of ghetto ass remarks and I said, "Do you honestly think you're telling me off right now because I can't understand a word your saying talking with all that shit in your mouth."  He threatens to punch me again and I lie and tell him my Dad's in the mafia so if he did that then he could count on waking up dead the next morning. 

Finally, he left.  Loudly, I might add.  Honking all the way down the street with his bass turned up as loud as it could go.  What a rude guy.  I have never had a guy talk to me like that in my life.  My Dad doesn't even talk to me like that so I'll be damned if any other guy will.  I was a little hurt too that we weren't getting defended other than Tim.  Plenty of other guys could have stepped up but it turns out the guy has supposedly commited a murder so I'm sort of glad no one tried.  The etnire time something inside of me wanted to turn to Shawty and say, "I bet your Mom bought you that shirt."  I'm not sure exactly what I would mean by it but I think it would be funny to say to some "gangsta ass thug."  I probably would have got shot if I said that lmao.  I told my parents about it and my dad was like "I really wish you would have called me!"  I didn't want anyone to fight; the guy was an idiot I just wanted him to leave and I'm glad he did.  After that the "party" was fine and everyone got along.  Hence the fact that everyone there were people we actually knew. 

So I'm quitting my job and I'm going to work at a grociery store with Tessa making salads.  It will be kick ass! =]

Has a guy ever talked to you the way Shawty talked to me?  It just isn't right.

Let me start off by saying I am super duper tired right now.  I'm wondering if I should shower now and not have to worry about it in the morning, or if I should just not shower at all.  I haven't decided yet.  I have to work at 8 in the morning, oh great!  Not broadcasting has been killing me, but I really need to stick to my guns here.  The break is needed. 

I'm am really excited for tomorrow, despite needing to work earlier than I could even usually consider getting up in the morning.  I will have to wake up super duper early to get ready and then I need a half hour atleast to get to work.  I was originially supposed to go to Border's tonight with Brandon so I could type out some essays [even though I could do it at home] while he wrote his thank you's from his graduation party, but then I remembered I had previous engagements with Tessa this evening. 

I got off work at 8 tonight [even though appearently I was supposed to get off at 830 but whatever] and then went straight over to Tessa's.  We made jello shots for a friend's birthday party tomorrow night.  I'm pretty stoked =].  They actually tasted pretty good.  We made the blue ones the really strong ones, and the purple ones the somewhat strong ones, and then the red ones are for the whimpos.  Ofcourse we are under age so we will not be drinking any of them, nor will any minors, but they are merely for people 21 or older of age.  Idk if that last statement made sense or not, see first sentence of the blog for explanation. 

So one of my friend's mom's has been married 4 different times, and screwed over each one.  She had heard a while ago that he was cheating on her, she even caught him cheating before, but she decided to ride the storm and try to make it work since she was tired of relationships ending in her day and age.  Tonight, her husband's girlfriend on the side called him when he was sitting right next to my mom's friend!  Of course he acted stupid, but my friend's mom kicked him out right on the spot.  Good for her.  No one needs to be put through that.  She made my friend and I promise that we would never put up with crap like that in relationships, I hope we never have to.  No one ever should.  But as I told her, even though the romantic relationship with this man didn't work out, she still had something that he never would; stability.  She's a good mom and a good person and a good friend.  She's been through a lot in her life and it's made her one solid woman.  That man can go and screw around as much as he wants, and chances are is that will never change.  But my friend's mom is a working woman and doesn't use her money for drugs or anything stupid.  She supports her kids, stays friends with her kids' father to make a more wholesome life for them, and she's one hell of a cook and housekeeper.  Even if I get screwed over romantically 100034545345 times in my life, I hope I come out with the knowledge and wisdom that this woman has.  She knows she doesn't need a romantic companion.  Hell, women can just buy vibrators.

What are some things that you are looking forward to this weekend?  Have you ever been screwed over in a relationship?  Or have you been doing the screwing over?

Today I am feeling much better than I did yesterday!  I'm no longer nauseas or overly tired, even though I did get up at 6 again.  Chances are if I had slept in my own bed I wouldn't be awake for a very long time, but I fell asleep at Brandon's watching Finding Nemo[after like 5 minutes]. 

Last night was a pretty good night... I got off work early then went to Taco Bell with Brandon at rediculous hours of the night, like we normally do.  I was super hungry since I hadn't eaten since like 4. 

It's really weird to think that he's going to college away from me.  Three hours away from me to be exact.  Craziness, huh?  It's just weird and somewhat depressing to think that we won't be able to just do the random things we used to do whenever we wanted:  go to Border's to do homework together, late night Taco Bell trips, or even surprising eachother and appearing at eachother's houses, just because we had an extra 20 minutes in our busy days.  I know I probably sound like a whiner, a lot of people have to deal with worse situations, like their husbands or boyfriends in the army or navy or marines.  After 2 and a half years of doing what you want when you want, you wonder if you ever took it for granted..which I'm sure I have, many times.  But that was then and this is now, and I'm going to try to take advantage of the time we have together til he leaves.  Part of why I wanted to take a break from Justin.tv. 

We are not going to break up when he goes to college, that's for sure.  I plan on going to the same college once I'm finished with my senior year.  I'm going to try to pull off graduating early, easier to do when homeschooled.

I miss reading.  I need to finish reading the 7th Harry Potter book, but I have to finish up a couple books for school first.  I am definitely the master procrastinator. 

So why did I break from Justin.tv?  Well for strarters, I'm still not technically done with my junior year.  I bearly have anything left at all, just a couple book reports, but I need as little distraction as possible.  This is very much a distraction, but I'm going to do it anyway.  Plus, this can be read over and over again, but I'll still only have had to write it once.  Also, I do want to spend some time with Brandon before he moves down to college.  There are a few other reasons, nothing of much importance, just things I need space from.  I really hope you understand!  I will be back soon, no worries =]

What are some changes you have going on in your life right now?  What books are you reading right now?  Comment me on here, or send me a Justin.tv message =]

<3 Jeni [Strawberrysoda]